So far, summer is just as good as I remembered it :)
Finn and I have taken a long walk each morning, usually ended that walk by going to the park. Then we head out on our errands for the day...or we go to the pool (Papa's pool that is), or we go play outside. It is really fun. I was prepared for this, I was prepared for the laziness, fun and general lethargy.
I wasn't prepared for boredom. I have been so ever-loving busy for the past 10 months of my life. I have not had ONE day in which I did not have to accomplish something, and most days I have to do about 50 jobs. A 'typical' day is (WAS) as follows:
6:00 (on a good day) wake up and feed Finn, get both of us dressed and ready to go
7:00: Drop Finn off at Laura's and head to school
7:15: Walk down to the photo room and set up the darkroom (and check mail)
7:45: School
10:00: Plan period--run to Target/grocery store/ etc. and get errands done for the day
10:30: Back to school
3:30: Leave school and pick Finn up and bring him back to school with me
5:00: Officially leave school with Finn, pick up dinner
5:30: Get home, do laundry, feed Ella, straighten up, eat dinner.
6:30: Bath, read stories, play
7:45: Get ready for bed, and read/play with iPad
8:00: Finn goes to sleep (?? usually?? He has no sleep schedule)
8:30: Finish laundry, shower, get things ready for tomorrow, straighten up more
9:30: crash into bed/read/finish any school work
So, now like 90% of that list is gone, which I am ecstatic for, but it's WEIRD.
So, last Sunday I had that day...that day I had been waiting for...the day to do NOTHING! I was just sitting around at home playing with Finn...and I was bored. I didn't have a photoshoot, I didn't have papers to grade, I didn't have pictures to edit, or a book I had to get through before Monday. I just was there.
And I felt bad, because this is what I have wanted for so long. And I felt bored by it all.
Already, I am getting back into the swing of things...finding things to do with Finn: playdates with friends, music classes, photo shoots, etc. And that feels good, but what does it mean?
I am rambling, I know...because I am at school right now copying files and packing things up...and I can.
So, those are my thoughts for today.
Sometimes I feel like I will never win this battle because I get bored, too. Very easily. It makes me want to work, but then I will feel guilty about working.
ReplyDeletePlus, I get so excited when I see Kate master something new and I don't want to miss anything. Just this week she learned the sign for flower, book, berry, and more. She also learned the letter B and she says "A, B" and I can't wait to teach her "C, D"... I don't think that being at work is worth giving that up.
I desperately need an at-home job, but don't feel like I have any skills that can make money from home. I don't want to get into dreaded sales. I hate selling-- thought about Pampered Chef, Sentsy, etc... none of it appeals to me and I don't want to be busy for the sake of being busy....
Luckily, I just moved to this gorgeous island, but what do I do with myself during Kate's naps? Now I just fill it with facebook/blog reading, but I don't get much out of that (aside from keeping tabs on you lol). Hoping to finally finish my bachelor's though!