More sick?

So...Randy either had the stomach flu last night, or some sort of food poisoning.  I have no idea which one, but I heard it...all night long.

And, while I am very sorry that Randy was sick, and I feel terrible that he had to get sick on his one and only day off for the week.

But, more than that, I am terribly frightened...that I am going to get the stomach flu, and that Finn is going to get the stomach flu.  And that maybe it'll happen at the same time, and I will be home all alone, pregnant and sick with a sick child.

I can't stop thinking about it.  It did not sound pleasant, it seems to be a 24 hour thing...but, all I want to know is "AM I GOING TO GET THIS?"  because if I am...let's just get it over with.  Let's just do it and be done with it, so I don't have to cancel on Jorie, so I don't miss Allison's bachelorette party (which is in 2 days), and so it doesn't affect our trip to Florida in 2 weeks.

Why is it that every single second I am sick? I literally used all 15 of my sick days (plus 2 unpaid days) last year at school...every SINGLE one was for Finn.

While, I do think that things have gotten better this year, I still feel like we are sick more than anyone I know.  I just want to be healthy.  I just want everyone to feel good, and be well.

I just want everyone to be NORMAL for 20 seconds...or maybe like 2 weeks.  Is that too much to ask? Am I too dramatic about it?  I just feel like I can't catch up, because every week there is a new illness to deal with.

I'm a baby, I know it.  I just DO NOT WANT TO GET THE STOMACH FLU...AGAIN.

Blech.

Stupid sickness.

And stupid weather for ALWAYS  being cold so that everyone on the planet gets sick every 5 minutes.  I am so ever-loving ready for spring/summer.

Sick...always sick.

So...I'm crabby, like really crabby.

Here are the reasons.

1.  Finn is sick, like really sick.  Like maybe the sickest I've seen him in...a long time.  He has pink eye, and a terrible cold.  Along with this cough, cold, runny (like a faucet) nose, eye funkiness, comes TWO things that are really awful.
-  the child NEVER sleeps, like never.  I haven't had a good nights sleep since before Easter, and I am slowly losing it.
-  the child is the MOST uncooperative child I have ever laid eyes on.  Every single thing you try to do for him when he's sick is the end of the world.  Like...imagine, PUTTING OINTMENT in that crazy child's eyes.  Or trying to get him to take cough medicine.  It is seriously fucking torture.

2.  Now, I am sick.  I have pink eye too, and this cold is coming...quickly and angrily.  I'm sure that this has something to do with the fact that I haven't slept in a week, but whatever.  I feel like shit, and I have to wear my glasses, which give me a terrible headache and I HATE them.  This morning I woke up with a fever, the last time I had a fever is when I had mastitis.  What the heck?

3.  Randy is NEVER home.  Like, I am not exaggerating, he has seen Finn while he has been sick for 10 minutes...total.  When Randy is home, Finn is asleep.  So every battle I have to fight with Finn is 100% alone.  Every decision I make for him while he is the most miserable I've seen him in years, is my decision (right or wrong).  It is terrible.  And I'm resentful about it, (1) because I feel lost and (2) because I am so tired and irrational, I can hardly contain myself.

4.  Our water heater broke this week, so that was annoying, and also cost $400 to fix.

5.  I cannot seem to get off my lazy ass and get my act together this week, which is in LARGE part due to the fact that I feel so terrible.   I had so many plans for this week, things to get done, etc. etc.


Incredibly hopeful that I write with happier news next time.  And I'm sure I will.

I tend to be a giant baby when I am sick, and I have very little perspective.

Sorry.