Sick...always sick.

So...I'm crabby, like really crabby.

Here are the reasons.

1.  Finn is sick, like really sick.  Like maybe the sickest I've seen him in...a long time.  He has pink eye, and a terrible cold.  Along with this cough, cold, runny (like a faucet) nose, eye funkiness, comes TWO things that are really awful.
-  the child NEVER sleeps, like never.  I haven't had a good nights sleep since before Easter, and I am slowly losing it.
-  the child is the MOST uncooperative child I have ever laid eyes on.  Every single thing you try to do for him when he's sick is the end of the world.  Like...imagine, PUTTING OINTMENT in that crazy child's eyes.  Or trying to get him to take cough medicine.  It is seriously fucking torture.

2.  Now, I am sick.  I have pink eye too, and this cold is coming...quickly and angrily.  I'm sure that this has something to do with the fact that I haven't slept in a week, but whatever.  I feel like shit, and I have to wear my glasses, which give me a terrible headache and I HATE them.  This morning I woke up with a fever, the last time I had a fever is when I had mastitis.  What the heck?

3.  Randy is NEVER home.  Like, I am not exaggerating, he has seen Finn while he has been sick for 10 minutes...total.  When Randy is home, Finn is asleep.  So every battle I have to fight with Finn is 100% alone.  Every decision I make for him while he is the most miserable I've seen him in years, is my decision (right or wrong).  It is terrible.  And I'm resentful about it, (1) because I feel lost and (2) because I am so tired and irrational, I can hardly contain myself.

4.  Our water heater broke this week, so that was annoying, and also cost $400 to fix.

5.  I cannot seem to get off my lazy ass and get my act together this week, which is in LARGE part due to the fact that I feel so terrible.   I had so many plans for this week, things to get done, etc. etc.


Incredibly hopeful that I write with happier news next time.  And I'm sure I will.

I tend to be a giant baby when I am sick, and I have very little perspective.

Sorry.