By life...trying to get everything I want done before school starts. School is like this huge, crazy deadline looming. I am so scared about it, like it makes me cry and feel sick. On top of all the stress about school, which I have absolutely nothing prepared for, my brother is mad at me, and I don't have the strength/energy to deal with it.
I can't even formulate complete sentences, that's how ridiculous I am.
So...in conclusion....
- I do not want to go back to school, I am absolutely terrified of starting at a new school, with more responsibility.
- I am afraid that I made the wrong decision and I should have stayed at Chesterton.
- I am afraid that I will never have the family I want, and I hate it.
- I wish that I was stronger.
- I feel guilty for feeling angry/upset about all of this, because I have this baby inside of me, which I want so badly to be happy and I don't want to stress because of him/her.
GRRR...
BAD DAY! :(
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