One year ago...I was in labor. I was in the worst pain of my life, and I was wondering so many things...
Can I do this?
Is it worth it?
When will Finn be here?
What will he be like?
Will I be a good mother?
Will he love me?
Will I love him as much as I think I will?
Will Randy and I make a good team?
Can we do this?
It was one of the scariest times of my life. But it was so worth it.
Today Finn turned one. I am now the mother of a toddler. I cannot believe it. It is still so utterly surreal. There are STILL days when I look at him and think "I can't believe he is mine." But he is, and now he's not a baby anymore, he's a toddler, which is just ONE step before "child" and then "preteen" and then "teen" and then (GULP) "adult."
I don't want to be the type of mother that laments that her baby is growing up too fast, because I know that with each new day, comes new adventures and new great things. But...I also miss some things about baby-hood...and it's hard to believe that I have to let go of his "babyhood" so quickly.
He will always be MY baby, but he's such a big boy, and I'm so proud of him.
Aww this is so sweet. Happy birthday to your darling boy!
ReplyDeleteTHANKS Becky for your comment and advice on my labor post! I'm still not sure what I'll do (maybe I won't even know till I'm there!) but it is so helpful to hear what other people have done!
I am torn. I am dreading Kate turning one. I feel like time went by way too fast and I just need her to stay like this a little longer, so I can savor it a just little more. People say time goes so fast, but never have I ever thought it would go this quickly. I feel like we just brought her home from the hospital. I love her baby-ness and I don't want it to end.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I am really excited to move into the toddler phase... the phase when she will be absolutely insatiable for knowledge. I LOVE little kid's eagerness and wonder in everything and I really look forward to showing her the world a little more.
Happy Birthday Finn! We wish we could be there this weekend to celebrate with you! Hopefully we'll be there for birthdays when you're a little older. I hope you have so much fun on your day! We love you and miss you and your family!
Happy Birthday Finn! I miss the baby time too, but it's so much fun when you can have conversations and do big kid things together. In 3 and a half years I have never once said that I couldn't take this or I was frazzled. Every single day is awesome with her and I know exactly how you feel.
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